This year, I’ve been presented with a lot of scary opportunities. Not like haunted-house scary, but taking-risks scary. I’ve been asked to be a part of a lot of big projects that really challenge me to grow as an artist. Each and every time, my thought process went like this:
- “Girl, you have to say yes! This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.”
- “Oh my gosh. What did I get myself into?”
- “Ok, you got this. Breathe!”
- “Just remember how you did it all the other times.”
- “Ugh, I suck!”
- “This isn’t so bad.”
- “Nailed it.”
As you can tell, for me, scary projects = roller coaster of emotions. For the longest time, I thought it was weird, or wrong to experience the stages in bold. I thought Girl Bosses were fearless… literally. Like, having no fear whatsoever. Silly me.
Lately, I’ve decided to experiment with being more accepting of my emotions. So what if I don’t like the way I wrote a certain phrase after the 10th try? So what if I think it sucks that a project will take 30+ hours? I decided to do this because IT’S OK to feel whatever you want to feel. Being a small business owner is hard, you don’t always have to enjoy every minute of it, and Instagram does not always equal reality. Side note: I’m so glad Instagram Stories is now a thing because not everyone is on SnapChat. I’ve had a blast getting to know artists more this way, and seeing the real and raw side of their brands.
When I was a Marriage and Family Therapist, I would always teach my kids that it’s possible to be scared and brave at the same time. Turns out, it’s easier to teach someone that, than believe it yourself. It’s a work in progress, but I think that allowing myself to be have this mental freedom has really helped me tackle challenging times.
To all the Girl Bosses (and Boy Bosses!) out there, you are brave, pretty, and smart. You’ve got this, and even though most of us work independently, just know that we’re all in it together.